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Before You Fall Asleep

by DOWNHAUL

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Jeremy Farrell
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Jeremy Farrell A record that you can truly dive into endlessly. There's so many little touches and cool moments that it makes a record that feels like it should cleanly into the genre feel like so much more Favorite track: Wires / Enough.
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Charles_Theiner Saw these guys one month ago for the first time opening for Remo Drive. Absolutely loved their sound and I've gotten all of the gear I can and went to all of the concerts I can. I ca't wait to see what they do in the studio next! Favorite track: Shelf Life.
Sarah Murphy
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Sarah Murphy i just think they’re neat Favorite track: Wires / Enough.
Kyle Barbour
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Kyle Barbour God, I love this album. It felt to me like a fresh, new, authentic expression of the same muse that tortured and inspired Sorority Noise, Tiny Moving Parts, and Into It. Over It. Favorite track: Wires / Enough.
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1.
Grace Days 03:20
There are days now where I don’t think of you Then word reaches me that you’re not taking care of yourself And what am I supposed to do with that? But I don’t reach out because I don’t know how to And that’s something I’ve got to live with Well I’ve burned my grace days, the people I have left They either can’t or simply won’t relate It’s not like I’m trying all that hard to connect Easily flustered as I pray to forget Spending each New Year in regional airports Weighing the import of checking in on friends As I struggle to reckon with the realization That I’ve got next to nothing to show for all these years Except a stutter, a shiver, my parents and my sisters The faintest recollections of a town beside a river Well I’ve burned my grace days And that’s something I’ve got to live with
2.
Lately 03:00
Well it’s granular now As I shed the sheets in this empty beach house You twitch to sleep and I trace the baseboard To the side door And I’m wide awake I’ve tried to tie down All the little things I think I can live without Cause I don’t want to chase the afterglow Of what I used to know anymore So go on and tell me What you’ve been doing lately Cause I’m dying to know
3.
I’m eating fast food frantically, outside of therapy Six minutes late, really six years late now As I try to figure out exactly what it means to be A better brother, son and friend To the people that trust me Struggling lately With even minor civilities Spinning my own wheels And feeling it seep out of me So now I lash out constantly, even my family Wires are crossed and “you’re losing your grip now” “You’ve got to stop the way you’re always looking back as if There’s anything left to gain from the places that you’ve been” “Your skin is too thin” As if that’s news to anyone You’ve got to understand That this isn’t how I meant to be But if no one else Ever believed in me It’d be enough You’d be enough
4.
Architect 03:52
Without a touch of disrespect Could someone tell the architect It’s all coming down Put together wrong You built it up too tall And now you can’t get it back And I’m burning up Over all these little things Like the way your voice still rings As I try to sleep, each night And it’s bad enough That I wake up sicker every morning Knowing you won’t check up on me now And you don’t Even in my fever my dreams Your conscience drags against the seams That I just can’t unravel You tied it up too tight Now every almost every night’s Another tangle that I can’t handle And I’m trying to get back To the things I loved four years ago But they just seem to ring so hollow now And it’s been a long time Since I had to truly stand on my own feet And try to prop myself back up And I can’t Cause I’m trying to rest, just to rest Already foreclosed my chance to dream Which is for the best, it’s for the best Cause I’ve been splitting at the seams And I still can’t level With the odds of meeting you when I fall asleep Where I can’t hide, my eyes have dried It’s just this tempest in my chest So I stay awake, knowing you wait With all my twisted memories of what we had My recollection still won’t serve me in the end As I try to filter, things that happened From what I built them up to be in my own head The architect of all this sordid tapestry And I can’t
5.
Level Set 03:29
Let’s level set, this isn’t what we meant Before I say something that I’d come to regret Cause we want different things, you’d always say so And I never understood how you’d purport to know just what I want When I never did But I still don’t And I never will Let’s level set, it was the right decision Which I repeat to anyone who’s bold enough to seek me out And get the closest thing to a straight answer As if these constant platitudes would somehow make this go down smooth And they never do It didn’t matter And it never will And I’d never tell you just how to remember me Cause it felt selfish after everything we’d seen One more vacation that you never came back from Just gone away It drags me down It holds me back We can’t deserve What we didn’t earn We didn’t earn
6.
Notched 02:53
The same cartilage is half-haunting me as I’m hooked willingly to the hued history of Your quaint pleasantry and my split memory of A notched maple tree and what you meant to me The stark symmetry of the pier next to me was A frame boundary of where we came to be and Our feet following it back to the water Would make our undoing hit even harder And I still see it all ending As you told me “it’s not healthy To want only when we’re lonely” What you needed I just couldn’t be My hands are dirty You’d be the first to say so, you always were It’s half-metaphor, it’s half-literal You lined the walls with everything we’ve said before Talking across your mouth A tongue I couldn’t taste with words I’d never hear It’s clear to me now That was my first sin, my only sin
7.
Bedridden 03:54
When we met you were sunburnt all the time And I was painted in a set of colors that just couldn’t be mine I’m bedridden, so good riddance Learning to walk again, leaning on all my friends Because I’m tired of living like a martyr In the hope that someone notices It’s a straight shot from what I’m not To the life that you’re building I hope it’s fulfilling to spit-shine What you thought you’d find along the way So keep pace with the aftertaste And the way you always compare yourself to other people It killed me because everyone’s burdens are different And I’m still too young to be this undone By what I didn’t do when I still knew you And I can’t feel the seasons changing But I can sense your feelings fading When we met you were anxious all the time It kills me because I always thought I’d be different
8.
Shelf Life 03:42
“Do you ever think that maybe there’s a reason that Your friends have stopped inviting you to things?” As if I hadn’t traced the commonality As if I really thought it was anyone else’s fault So I’m counting creases in the sidewalk back to Clay Street And I’m dodging questions about what we’re doing next Cause I’m fine and you’re fine But it’s hardly closure And that’ll be something that I hold onto After the shelf life of what we went through You might not have meant it the way it passed your teeth But I can only speak to the way it stuck with me The way it sticks with me And I want to be the person that my parents Act like I am when they catch up with friends About setting sons and what we’ve done The ways we measure up to the things they want for us The way my sister looks at my new brother How I can’t fake that for all the years I’ve tried So I’m packing boxes, my yearly practice And I’m moving past this And it’s watching other people When they truly need each other A crushing commentary Hardly a framing issue So I dread this rite of passage Cause each time it’s temperamental Unpack what I can manage Cause you’re all I can remember You’re all I can remember
9.
Balcony 02:14
Well I’ve been sneaking into the balcony Cause I don’t fit down on the floor There was a time I knew you spoke to me But I don’t feel that anymore And it’s a shame now The way it shakes out I know my mother’s losing sleep each Sunday night And I would change that If I knew how to And that’s something I’ve got to live with
10.
Ring Out 03:44
Cause I haven’t unpacked for real since about 2009 And it’s a lot to process at once Cause I’ve been running all this time And there’s a certain uncertainty inherent To signing one-year leases For all the stability apparent It all just seems so temporary now There’s a fine line Between making a statement and ruining family holidays It’s tough, but I’ve seen tougher And there’s a state of mind For assigning meaning to the way these things shake out Do you get anxious like I get anxious? And it’s been so sobering To see the way that people try to Cull it at the breakers in a Half-attempt to normalize the Things we all experience at Slightly different paces If you won’t admit you’re struggling Then no one knows to help you Let it ring out These are the things you think about Before you fall asleep

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“They take hints of emo jangles, throw in a bit of twang, and add to it a feeling of momentum that matches the band’s own growth.” - Our Top 50 Most Anticipated Releases of 2019, THE ALTERNATIVE

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released March 29, 2019

Engineered by Kris Hilbert at Legitimate Business in Greensboro, North Carolina. Mixed by Chris Teti at Silver Bullet Studios in Burlington, Connecticut. Mastered by Bill Henderson at Azimuth Mastering in West Trenton, New Jersey. Cover photo by Joshua Defibaugh. Layout & design by Josh Higgins.

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